When I first started this blog, I was determined to post every damn day and report back. Because, after all, every day in our lives counts! I still think that all days are important. I do hate just wasting them away. I want each day to be meaningful, to have that something in it that makes me smile. In real life, sometimes I don’t write the blog posts on the same day. Not even the day after. My initial plan was to write the daily post every day around 9 pm. It worked fine for a while and then things got out of hand. I became way too busy. I wanted to do everything and do it immediately. I was too tired in the evenings to even open my computer. That’s why I have been sometimes writing the posts later. Sometimes I even had to write a week’s worth of posts at once. Honestly, it was hard to remember what each day was about. What I did to edge closer to my goals. What made me feel special. I don’t want to do this again. You might not notice it if you just found this blog. I have backdated all the posts, so they would have the right dates. But if you are my keen reader and come back every day to see the latest reports, you have possibly noticed that not all the posts appear here when they are supposed to. That’s life.
I decided to wrap up five days in one post because these days were all similarly crazy and devastating. I felt as if I was destroyed. I haven’t rebuilt myself. Not yet. What could destroy me in such a way? Learning something new! I do love learning but only if I understand every step of the way. The IT training started off nicely and I was on track, but then it got too complicated. The pace too fast, the information too large of a chunk to handle. I was always tired, my headaches came back. I had to plan my days very carefully to fit my training in. And every day when I went back to the classroom, I was destroyed once again. The teacher is really nice but he tends to wander. At times, when he’s not wandering, he talks fast and does things even faster. It’s like he is having fun in the Visual Studio program. Jumping here and there… and yes, in a way, wandering again. This is very hard to follow if you don’t have the necessary background. After a whole day of this, anyone would be tired. My only condolence has been that I’m not the only one. I have seen desperation on other people’s faces. It will get better. It must get better. I want to understand!
Although most of the days from Monday to Friday were very similar – IT training from 9.15 am to 4.30 pm, a run early in the morning or late in the evening, an odd pole dance class -, I did some things that I don’t do every week. On Tuesday, I participated in a team relay race, which meant running 1.2 km around the Tallinn TV Tower. 8 people in the team, 4 men, 4 women. My pace: 3.42 min/km which is fine. It was only 2 days after the 3.2 km race. Oh, and in the morning I also had to run 13 km. Not the freshest of legs, I mean. And on Friday, we became one of the last people to watch the epic Truth and Justice film. 2 hours and 45 minutes and it wasn’t boring. I was extremely tired by that time, obviously, having gone through yet another IT training day and a hard-ish workout (15 km), but I even managed to stay awake for the duration of the film. Yay!
1. Own and live in a house.
5 days of IT training which will guide me onto a new career path. That’s a big thing, I guess. New career, better chances of building/buying the house. (Notice that I’m talking about buying already… we might not be ready for the whole building thing).
2. Write AND publish a book.
Oh, yes, I was writing!!! Writing code… I mean.
3. Win a major race.
Lots of training. The first serious workouts after the marathon. One team relay race. Good shape.