Having some kind of ambition in life is crucial. I cannot even imagine a life that does not include any forward-thinking, any desire to push further and further. What I am afraid of the most? It must be stagnation, standing still, getting stuck. My restlessness forces me to develop myself. I am always on the lookout for new learning opportunities. Be it a university degree or a one-day course, if it’s interesting, I’m in!
I am currently reading Napoleon Hill’s book Think and Grow Rich. It’s an old book (1937) but some of it is still true. I didn’t like it very much at first, seemed too America-based, but I am getting into it. Gradually. Just this morning I read how most successful people have a high sex drive. Their secret for success? They take this sexual energy and convert it into creativity. They are confident, self-assured, bursting with energy. Hill disdains wasting one’s sexual energy and doesn’t favour being addicted to sex. It’s only then desirable if a person uses this energy to improve oneself. Well, the book is a bit old-fashioned, he also thinks that every man’s (as in “male”) success is granted thanks to a woman, a supporting wife. The modern world is not so male-centred, things have changed. A bit. I do think that a supportive relationship is the basis of success.
I confess that I find ambition sexy. Ambitious people are attractive. There’s a reason I married a competitive runner. They are fighters. They want something from life. I like to think that I am the same. I am beginning to get a strong feeling of desire again. I want something again. If I want it enough (just like I wanted to get into Bath Spa University in 2011 and then just did it), I will succeed. I want to increase my income. I want to publish a best-selling book. I want to improve my running PBs. I have written down the latter in specific numbers but I am not disclosing them here. You’ll be hearing about it as soon as I break the records.
1. Own and live in a house.
Arranged some appointments for the rest of the week. Future income, here I come! Applied for an interesting course that could completely transform my career path. Let’s see how it goes.
2. Write AND publish a book.
I didn’t get as much done as I originally planned but I did write. It was my trainer’s birthday and we went to congratulate him. As we sat down for lunch, it all took about an hour. But… I continued rewriting my complete novel. Finally managed to get over the most boring parts. Hopefully, made them much better. Isn’t it funny that the worst parts are those that are actually inspired by my own life? Possibly, when writing about myself, I have an annoying habit to explain too much. This doesn’t happen with the fictional characters.
3. Win a major race.
I haven’t been to the Monday workouts for a while. Not since I got back from the UK. This means months and months. Mondays are spent outside. Most of the snow has melted now and some places are quite perfect for running. We did 6×2 minutes + 4x 1minute sprints. My slowest: 3.52, my fastest 3.27 min/km. I’m surprised. I wasn’t feeling that good. Must be in a good shape after all. Beware, here I come!